Thursday, 9 May 2013

23. 9 May 2013 - Back up to 180 mcg interferon, and my theory on disappointment

The Lenograstim is already working. I injected it on Sunday night, and my neutrophils were back up to 2.1 on Wednesday, so now I'm back on 180 mcg Interferon.

Not getting the result I wanted in my last viral load test has motivated me to make sure I'm doing everything I can, so I volunteered to go back for another full blood count blood test, to get back on the full dose of interferon as soon as possible.

I wrote my last post at a low moment, I'd just got the viral load test results back and they weren't what I wanted. I posted a moan on here and on the forums, went for a personal training session, and within an hour, was fine with it.

I like to be positive and not worry, to assume that the best will happen. I had got myself in a frame of mind where I was expecting to see "undetectable". It's a danger, that by thinking positively, I set myself up for disappointment. But, the disappointment doesn't last long, a few hours. Whereas, I feel, if I tried to prepare myself for less than ideal news, I would spend many more hours feeling low.

I've got 2 weeks to go until my 12 week viral load tests. If I don't make the cut-off, then treatment is over. No point worrying about it. I'm doing my best.

The next thing, assuming I continue on treatment, is my platelets - apparently they are falling quite quickly. They are ok at present, but if they fall much more then once again I'll be on the lower dose of interferon. My next tests are on the 20th of May, before my clinic appointment on the 21st.


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